sweet 16 ain't all it's cut out to be.
USA born pinay.
guitar. poetry. music.
I speak english, tagalog and spanish.
Life is a blank canvas and you are the artist.
I write.
I breathe.
I play music.
the simplest things in life are often taken for granted.
“Life.
Love.
Forgiveness.
Acceptance.
Stripping demons right off my back trying to leech life off me.
… Get off me and feel my Father’s fury, Oppressor!
One day you’ll feel the full blast of His vengeance, Beelzebub, but for now
I’ll love.
Cause I got strength.
He blew courage in my backbone.
Now I’ll stand straight and militant lining up in Jehovah’s battalion,
knowing you can’t challenge him so we march forward.
Swift as eagles, set like talons ready to grip souls from your grass,
slick snake in the grass, my Lord sees you and vengeance is his.
But for now I retaliate,
propelled by a holy mandate to heal ‘cause I know how bad it hurts.
Full of madness at first but now
gladness bursts out the seams of our beings ‘cause we overflow with the oil of joy
the ointment of the anointed
mending any torn soul
healing any broken bone
He is here.
He was there.
He is peace.
He is faithful.” - The Breaker’s Commission by For Today. this is the song that gave me light at my darkest hour—saved me when nothing else could. I strongly suggest that if you’re feeling hopeless… lost… listen to The Breaker’s Story by For Today. powerful stuff.
is this real?
sometimes I wonder if this is all a dream and that I’ll just wake up in pure disappointment. then, I see his face, I feel his warmth, I kiss his lips and I’m convinced this is real. honestly, I don’t care what other people say. I’m finally in love with someone who loves me more than anything else and for me, that’s enough. to him, I’m perfection. something I will never see in the mirror but somehow he does. I don’t care what ANYBODY SAYS. I love Will with all my heart and thats the way it’s gonna be. 10.18.11
“everything i could ever imagine in a dream girl came to life when i met you. it like, the opportunity is right there and i was saying to myself, ‘really God? youre just rewarding me with this perfect gift? i didnt feel like i deserved it.’ you dont know how badly i want to sleep beside you. for you to fall asleep in my arms then wake up and see your face.”
one month
sooo friday was when a certain someone and I made a month :) well, a month since we made it official. I wrote him a letter and made him a bracelet with green (his favorite color), black (our favorite color) and purple (my favorite color). he seemed to like it. he wrote me a song (which is a lot coming from a guy who doesn’t listen to love songs) and I was like “…aweee x)” I swear, if I wasn’t his girlfriend, I wouldn’t have ever EVER known he had a soft side.
so anyways, after school we went to this park (it was huge, we had a whole section to ourselves for a while) and just sat there and talked. it was really nice despite the freezing weather and the fact that we were both under dressed made it even better. we talked about well… everything. afterwards we finally decided that we didn’t want to get sick so we went to this asian bakery where he had his first chicken bun! :D his face was… priceless.
later that day someone asked me, “oh so he didnt take you out or anything? like, on a date?” my repsonse? “it doesn’t matter, I just wanted to spend the day with him and only him and that’s exactly what I got.”
so that’s what happened on november 18th 2011, the day we made a month.
I love you so much sweetie
SEX.
sex is nothing if not purely spiritual. that spiritual bond should only be shared between two people who have connected in every single way possible and all that’s left is the physical connection. sex should not be a goal to strive for but the last thing on your mind when you think of your significant other. silly people who think that sex is a given have probably not even experienced true LOVE. your virginity, (this goes to males or females), should be preserved for your one and only. he/she should be your first and LAST.
I know I’m still young and have so much more to learn but I’m pretty sure I have a well understanding on this particular topic. (:
so we just keep on, keeping on.
even though I had all the reason to throw up my hands and give up today, just the thought of seeing my boyfriend kept me going. that tight hug he gives me.. picks me up and kisses me.. says that he really missed me… that he loves me so much.. that was enough to keep me going.
he gave me his bracelet and I kinda gave it back.. I felt bad because he’s had that bracelet for a LONG time and I didn’t wanna take it from him :P
but but but I made up for it by giving him a bar of chocolate and a nice lil letter attached to it (:
I swear, I’m the luckiest girl. <3
“They wanted to pray together, but not see each other, before the ceremony.”
(Source: paraliandreams, via brand-new-eyess)
NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY
